"My sadness is in ascent "

                I am an unknown girl that no one knows who she is, what she wants to be? Yes, I am a girl who she was but now isn't, who she is but doesn't want to be. who she wants to be but people didn't let her be. Further, a question arises then who was she before? I was a little soft-hearted, caring, a listener, enjoying every moment, and a girl who cried in pity things and now turned the rudest girl ever. all because of, Not going the way of people. however, Whatever God chooses for me I accept it without any complaints, and Now I don't care if anything that is happy or sad. No, I am not a bad girl but I have some story, if now I am changed the reason is my own beloved ones. Besides this life is such a thing that everyone's views are different. No one can decide whether his/her life is sad or happy. Life changes every second. When we get happiness so we think life is beautiful so if we get sadness then there is nothing worse than life so likewise, my life is always indescribable. Yes, people compel us to change I’m sure I wasn't so and I can't define my life because of now whatever views we have been wronged by others. Actually, life is a journey and I think my journey is others matter. To have a look at me I am always sad in as well as disappointed from life, from Allah, and from people of this society. but only one thought maintained my life that "whatever lord does is for our betterment ". And I am living my days with this sentence. 

            A new hope makes my day shiny. I always live. But in my heart, I never stop questioning Allah, why Allah make made a girl? Why did Allah create me? Like this many "whys" are there in my mind. what was my fault that he made me a girl? Did I do sin? Did a 17 years old girls deserve too much pain at this age? Why Allah shows me such big dreams which he can't complete. But being from a humble background my journey is full of obstacles because I want to bring changes in my society in my family, I want to show people, want to show myself what I wanted to be and here I am. Because if I am a girl, I am a queen, I have an invisible crown and I have to reach that crown because I am worth it. I just had one thing in my mind that I am going to give myself a good education which I deserve because in a village they said even after graduation you get married. There is no point in studying much but my parents told me that we can't help you in studying. Yes, I am like a princess I did it. I continue my education I said myself I will do it. After all, I went to my dream city Quetta Balochistan. Quetta city is such a place where every student dugs dreams. And now I am continuing my education. Yes, I want to bring changes in my life for my society. I am strong because there is nothing stronger than a broken girl trying to build herself. And will fight because my story is not over yet. So a humble request for all "don't you ever be worry to start over again after a failure. Remember this time you are not starting from a scar; you are starting from an experience.

 

By: Sachaan Baloch from Kallag Turbat Kech 

Ruzhn Academy Bugh Meeri